i dont think about him that much anymore..

I just got an email from my best friend, she had news about my ex. It has taken me almost 2 yrs to get over this guy. Occaisionally thoughts of him still creep into my mind, but i dismiss them just as quickly cos i know nothing will ever happen there again.
And then i got an email confirming that.

He has proposed to his current gf. The one he cheated on with me. Yes i was the other women. But i loved him all the same. It was complicated. I ended it. but it was the hardest thing i have ever done. i sonttimes think that maybe it was the biggest mistake ive ever made... but its done and over. cant change that now.

i hope he is happy. all i ever really wanted is for him to be happy.

....i feel sick.